I had been so slack in blogging lately. I really find "finding time" harder than before. Earlier, I struggled to reset my blogger account, spent almost 30mins trying to re-establish my identity with blogger on their new settings. (that shows how long have I NOT update my whereabouts. tsk! tsk!)
In fact,I think I am quite backwards who still stick around with blogger whereby john and the rest are already up and moving with my space,multiply and what nots...Ai yah, I just can't be bothered with all the rest cos I really don't have the leisure of time to dabble with all these gizmos...it's already very good that I can update this when ethan just dozed off...yay!
Being a parent to 2 kids is no joke, I wonder how a homeschooled mom I came across handled hers when she has FIVE chidren and 6th on the way next month! She is a SUPERwoman!!! Having to handle 5 children( 2-9yr old) plus she is homeschooling all of them plus no helper and a dear wife to her hubby! Isn't that amazing? but when I get to read her journal, what amazes me more is her dedication, the values and disciplined lifestyle she holds. Being able to do what she is doing aren't easy, she had given up her lucrative career to pursue what she calls LIFE, she had made changes in her own life to accomodate her family life, giving up career future to pursue BUILDING her children's future. Instead of relying on the resources she has, she and the family chose to rely on the provision of God to sustain their daily needs for the past many years.
I may not know this lady well, perhaps only by read her series of journals and articles she posted online. Having read all that had caused me to evaluate my own pursue and defination of Seeking God's will... Should I give up my work/ministry for family or should I balance them both so I can benefit them all...Honestly, there aren't a model answer and I know it but being a child of God I know the Lord will speak and if he does, it is the OBEDIENCE that He honours most of all not what we do or not do.
Yeah, I am learning to hear from my Father again. It may seems " huh...again?" but why not, aren't we all always learning to hear from Him again and again. Just as we grow over the years, our relationship with the Lord should deepened just as well. As I am turning a year older by next month, I really want to see my relationship with Him transcends a level deeper, get more cosy and intimate with Him.