wendy's wedding

i attended an old sec school friend tonight and i get very strange sentiments about it. Mainly due to the sitting company of those in the same table... what happened was i used to have this very close girlfriends whom I used to hang out during my sec sch days all the way past poly and perhaps another 1-2 yrs thereafter which i was about 22-23 then.

Afterthen, il kinda stopped meeting them due to my involvement in the church activities etc... subsequently, i also lost their nos. as a result of losing my HP blah... blah.. blah...finally, wendy the bride got to call my mum's home one day while i was in spain wanting to invite me to her wedding... i was excited for her but at the same time filled with much apprehension due to the unexpected things to come when i meet the rest of the gang...

True enough or as much as I kinda expected, the dinner conversations i had with them was stale and really that was the moment that hits me we are rather different after all these 4 years of disappearance from each others' lives... i reckon, it will take as much as a while for use to rebuild the relationship (if we are still keen) otherwise it will then remain as it is now...

initially, i really felt a great pinch of losing some old friends like them whom i did had spent some good times with, on the other hand, i wasn't sure if i do have the time and energy to rebuild those broken walls as much things have very much change and progress by now... just strange feelings that i am having right now and hard to describe further...so instead of dwelling in it, i will go and rest now...